Is it too late to have a New year’s resolution? It’s only the beginning of the year and first month, baka pwede pa akong humabol.
2012 was very stressful for me. To use the word “very” is an understatement.
I would go to bed with butterflies in my stomach. I would wake-up shaking, nervous, stressed-out, even before I opened my eyes in the morning, I already felt tired and burned-out. There were also many things around me that made me feel sad, very sad.
I don’t usually time my resolutions on New Year’s day although this is tradition. Last NY’s eve, it did not even cross my mind to write down any NY’s day plan or changes. I just ended my 2012 with the same prayers and wishes that everything would be fine, at home and at work. I wished that my 2013 would be a lot better and that when the clock strikes midnight on December 31, my January 1, 2013 at 12:01, all my troubles would be gone and a new day and new year would begin.
Three weeks have passed and the stress is still here. I told Fr. Jonil that I would like to see him soon, so he could help me pray and clear my thoughts of worries, anger and fear. I just couldn’t find time. I’ll see him after January 28.
Yesterday, I decided that I need centering again. All the worries and concerns have removed my body from it’s coil.
I meditated, inhaled the positives and exhaled the negatives. I decided that I will just try to inhale it all.
To just embrace the challenges of day to day living, think of the positives, renew my strength and spirit.
I said “try” because I can’t promise I will not fail. I can’t promise that I would neither get scared nor worry again.
But I will try. I am working on a different life strategy. Although today is only the first day, I am trying to think out of the box. To deviate a little from the usual me. No, I think I cannot deviate from “me” but I’ll try to keep close to my center. I will actually go back to my old self.
I copied this message somewhere:
“NOTHING IN LIFE CAN KEEP US DOWN EXCEPT OUR OWN THINKING.
IF WE WANT A GOOD QUALITY OF LIFE, THEN WE MUST HAVE A GOOD QUALITY OF THOUGHT.
LIFE IS AS BEAUTIFUL AS YOU ALLOW YOURSELF TO BELIEVE.
SOME PEOPLE UNDERESTIMATE HOW TRULY POWERFUL THE MIND LIKE YOURS IS”.
Lieutenant Tan-Yee
Good morning Ms. Annie! I smiled while perusing your posts this morning. Ilang araw na po kasi akong offline. Then nakita ko pic nyo in uniform then i also read some lines sa post before it kaya ako na-smile. Kako grabe lahat na ng klase ng trabaho kaya niyo! My husband is a police officer -assigned with AviationSG. Kako minsan sa kanya nang ilang oras na ang nakaraan ay di pa bumabalik yong nagrerepair, “hay naku dad, naisahan ka na nong mamang nagrerepair ng electric fan! bakit mo ibinigay yong motor ng electric fan kung ngayon mo lang sya nakilala!” Kala raw niya di sya lolokohin kaya ibinigay ang motor thinking na babalik yong nagrerepair. Siguro naka-relax lang ang guard niya pag nasa bahay kaya ganun. pero when it comes naman sa safety namin ng mga bata may pagka-oc naman sya. 🙂
Ganyan nga Cecile, naloko ako nung Sabado. Merong maid na ni refer sa akin. I gave her P1,650 pamasahe at pang soli ng vale nya sa dating amo nya. Tapos nung linggo, usapan namin na pupunta na siya dito, hindi na sinasagot ang celphone at busy ng busy, minsan pinapatay. Nagtago na.
hay naku po! at least po Ms. Annie sa simula pa lang nalaman niyo na hindi sya pwedeng pagkatiwalaan. pero sayang po yong effort ninyo para i-meet siya at sa Tagaytay pa! ganundin sa naibigay ninyong pera sa kanya, sayang lalo dahil nawalan sya ng magandang amo! 🙂
kapapanood ko pa lang ng tv patrol merong katulong na pinagtangkaang patayin yung amo , ninakawan sila.
Good morning Ms. Annie! At gising pa po kayo sa mga oras na yon! 🙂
Nakakatakot po ang balitang yan. Naalala ko po tuloy yong isang bata na namatay dahil sa yaya. Pag-kauwi daw ng nanay nakita nya na nakakumot ang bata, sabi po ng yaya tulog na raw po. Pero nong makapahinga ang nanay pinuntahan niya ang anak at hinalikan. Doon po nya na-realize na malamig na ang bata. Yong padre de familya po ay kakilala ng husband ko pero sa navy naman naka-assign. natakot po ako nong mabalitaan ko yan lalo na at working mother po ako at naiiwan lang ang mga anak ko sa katulong.