Yesterday, before proceeding to the West Room of the Manila Golf, I passed by the women’s toilet to wash my hands. While facing the mirror, all of a sudden something hit me. Not physically, but mentally. I looked at myself and some realizations flashed right before me. I recognized some of my limitations.
In the past, I tried to push myself by trying to be too nice and accepting of other people’s idiosyncrasies. At my age now, I want to be true and honest to myself. I am not a plastic person. I actually am one who cannot hide her true color. When I am angry, I am angry. When I like to greet you, that’s really me. But in the past, there were people that I always gave the benefit of the doubt. I would say, “mabait naman yun, kaya lang siguro…”. Ngayon, I’ve decided, I would eliminate the KAYA LANG SIGURO… I would call a spade a spade. If I don’t like this person, then I simply do not like this person, period. No more siguro, baka, kaya, nice naman.
Having this kind of attitude could be bad. I am beginning to have a negative attitude towards some people. They could be sitting in one corner and I would still look at them with disdain. I would want to attack them. So better to stay away from people that get into my nerves.
Very un-Christian-like, some would say. But this is me. I do not want to be around people that make me inis. Who irritate me for whatever or no reason at all. Konti lang naman ang taong ayaw ko. So far Rey, Cecile, N&S, and GB (go to hell!), plus two female crooks working in government. I hope hindi madagdagan, sana mabawasan.
After I post this, I would take a deep breath and erase them from my memory and not think of them. They don’t matter in my life so their presence in my thoughts should vanish. They do not deserve a second of my thoughts. Goodbye mga taong ek-ek!
Way to go! I’ve been doing that for almost a year now, feels so good:)
Thank you Olive.