Last night when the thoughts of unfinished 2014 things to do and pending issues passed my consciousness, my stomach started getting very upset. I went to bed already feeling low. Naturally, when I woke up this morning, I was already feeling quite depressed.
I also did some self reflections and I blame myself for some of my missteps. Who else is to blame of course it’s just me. Many times I acted on barbaric impulses without the aid of analytical thinking and legal advice. I always thought people are trustworthy and would not cheat me. But I am learning from painful experiences that a lot of savvy businessmen do not know the difference between being smart and doing what is right. They bask in their “smartness” by cheating others. And I am always the “others”. Obvious that I am not as smart because I always trust that people would honor agreements which is what is right. They go for the kill even if it means being double-crosser. How much more does one need to live comfortably and luxuriously?
Cheat more, screw more.
I could almost see their happy faces, dahil naisahan nila ako. Stupid me.
I hope deep in their hearts they know what truly belongs to me. If I cannot get it back, I will painfully accept defeat with hope that in the end, I will have victory. They will also experience defeat maybe in their other business ventures. Bigger than what they are taking away from me. Laging merong kapalit.
I will start with some changes in my life. Adjustments are to be made, new directions must be studied, my 2014 simple plans need tweaking.
I am looking forward to a happy and prosperous 2015. Good luck to me.
Ms. Annie, don’t be too hard on yourself. I often wonder how they could sleep soundly at night, but they obviously could as they have a different set of values. Wealth, power, winning at all costs are more important than character, justice, compassion and Godly values. But we eventually reap what we sow.