It’s the first of May. Much as I don’t want to feel rushed, there’s a feeling of urgency in my every day. Para bang lagi akong may hinahabol. Parang lagi akong may deadline. That could be the reason why I always feel tired and hingal.
Last night, I realized that there are still a few things that I want to do, things I want to have, things I want to give to myself. And today, I am going to write them all down in a tiny notebook, just like what I used to do when I was still in college. I am going to have a checklist so I would know if I am on track.
Little things that have nothing to do with becoming a successful entrepreneur. It’s not about money. Some are so mababaw. It’s about self-proclamation, whatever that means.
My list would be divided into several categories. It would be the height of hypocrisy if there wouldn’t be any material wants. Syempre meron. I want to have a new watch maybe next next year. I also want to go back to Tokyo and buy the bag that I’ve seen in Ginza. It may take a year, two years or more. I am not in a hurry. Kaya lang baka wala na yung bag, matagal pa. Mag-iipon pa ako.
Nung college ako, pati wanting to have timba and tabo, nakalista rin.
I also want to learn new things. Iisipin ko pa kung ano. Not photography. Not ballroom dancing. More like karate or street fight kind of self-defense. I will also go back to the shooting range on a regular basis. I want to practice and see if I am still a sharpshooter.
Nineteen years ago I took up English proficiency classes at Oxford College in England. My Kuya Lito also paid for my one week one on one Public speaking classes in New York with a top-notch English coach. The same lady who coached the late Margaret Thatcher and many known Broadway and Hollywood actors, including Michael Douglas. Tila lagi akong absent at bakit ganito ang sentence construction ko. I want to go back to school again, not to learn how to speak English, but it’s a good excuse to meet new friends, interact with people from all over the world. I want to do that maybe 2 years from now. I don’t know yet where. I would probably enrol again in a 3 month course.
Teach. I have been asked to teach Marketing several times but because of my schedule, it’s really hard for me to accept a full time teaching job. Even part time would be a stretch. My mind is so cluttered na with stress. Baka lagi akong absent. Pasado lahat ang estudyante ko. Ang bait kong professor ano. I have done some lectures on Business Ethics before. I also did hour-long talks infront of graduating students in Business, Management, and Accounting at UP Diliman. Nakakatuwa when the students learned something that encouraged and motivated them to pursue their own dreams. Siguro I’ll teach when I turn 60, so medyo matagal pa, 10 years pa. Turning 50 pa lang ako this May. Huwag nang magtaka. I am forever 50.
