oH IT’S my birthday today.
I have no special plans for today, other than try to update my posts, rest, go to Cardinal Santos to get the results of my blood test, go to church and eat dinner with my family. I had no time to prepare for a picnic or anything.

I spent my day yesterday at the Cardinal Santos, starting at 10 am, glucose test and cancer marker for colon.
Then I waited for the internist who massaged my stomach checking for any lump. Then I left the hospital for two hours and went back to get the results which were not very good, then I visited another doctor for his opinion. He sent me back to the lab for another cancer marker blood test specifically for colon. Then I had ultrasound of the pancreas and liver the results of which were normal.

And why am I undergoing these tests? Number one because I am paranoid. Number two, if you have been noticing that I look constipated in most of my photos, it is because I am really constipated, literally and figuratively.
Ellen died of cancer of the colon and she’s constipated. My father died of cancer of the colon and he was constipated. They did not die of constipation but of cancer. and I am very scared that’s why I am spending time money and effort to rule out any possiblity.

Today is my birthday and I will try not to worry. But I am. I am actually scared to death.
Edmund likes to say, “when death comes, it comes”. But I do not want it to come, yet. I still want to be around in this world, even if more often than not, I feel like I haven’t done enough to make the world a better place.

When I was little, I always get a birthday cake from my Kuya Junior, and when he left for the US, my other Kuyas continued the tradition. When my mom was so stressed out managing our household, caring for us and helping out in the businesses, she would be grouchy even on my birthday. A few times I would cry and tell to myself, “why is she scolding me, it’s my birthday”. As a little girl, I thought birthdays should be a happy day. My young mind could not understand why I was sad on my birthday.

Now that I am not only an adult, but an old adult, I no longer have this notion. My birthday comes with everything life has to offer today. The worries of not living long enough. The burdens of day to day living.
But things have a way of balancing itself. I have a loving family. I know they love me dearly.
When morning comes, I will surely get all the hugs and kisses that matter most in my life.

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Happy Birthday Annie, today represents another year that God has given to you. Be grateful.

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16 thoughts on “Happy Bday to Me 2012”

  1. Happy Happy Birthday Annie! For you are a blessing to many may many many more blessed years comes into your life!!!

  2. Happy Birthday! I agree with you that sometimes birthdays make you think of your own mortality.. The important thing is you know you want to live your life to the fullest and based on what I can see from your blog, you have been.
    I admire that you choose to spend more quality time with the people that really matter– your family..May you all continue to live a happy, healthy and blessed life.. Cheers!

  5. Happy happy birthday kinakapatid! God is faithful and merciful. He will not give you more than you can handle. So far you’re handling everything well. Edmund is right, “when it’s your time, it’s your time”. Do not worry about tomorrow for it has not come, or the past because it’s long gone. Today is the day. It’s your special day! May God continue to bless you and your family!

    Aloha,
    Peng

  6. hello Annie
    ikaw talaga, you worry too much, hayan, normal naman pala ang lahat:) sabi nga sa atin, atay kung atay. enjoy ka lang lagi at huwag mag-worry, pero pag may naramdaman, takbo agad sa duktor, di ba? Happy no-worries Birthday!

    ps- kailangan ng fiber-rich foods para sa constipation..

    ernie

  7. Happy birthday, Annie! God loves you for sure…..you bring joy and inspiration to so many people by just being you !! God bless you more….Take care.

  8. Happy Happy birthday ate Annie!:-) i hope your birthday was one of the best days in your life. i hope the Almighty blesses you with love, happiness and health for the new year in your life, and forever.

  9. Hello, Annie ( mas vale tarde que nunca…)
    Belated Happy Birthday and wishing you days of pure joy and love in your heart. Days knowing that no harm will come to you because GOD is with you always ( you’re one in a million)…Have a nice day and GOD bless…!!!

    Kuya Eddie

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