Sudden Loneliness

Two nights ago,  while I was wading it out in the heavy EDSA traffic,  all of a sudden I was engulfed with loneliness.  I felt so sad and lonely.   Bigla kong naalala ang mama ko.  Ang papa ko,  ang mga kapatid ko.  And I felt like I wanted to go home to our home.  To our humble house in Poblacion, Binangonan, Rizal.  Siguro the gloomy skies triggered that burst of melodramatic emotions.

There were times when there’s just too many things to worry about in my present life,  I get so emotional and start missing my parents and siblings.

Parang I missed the smell of rain-soaked wood.    When it rained kasi,  the inner side of the wooden walls of our house gets damped.    Sometimes, when the wind was very strong, especially when there’s a typhoon,  the rain seeped thru the gaps.

There’s a certain smell of wood, water, wind combined together.

I could almost hear my papa’s voice “….ne   maglatag ka na”.   Ako kasi ang taga latag ng banig at tiga kabit ng kulambo.    They both sleep on the bed,  but Aileen and I slept on the floor, kasi baka mahulog kami sa kama, malikot matulog.   Parang nararamdaman ko pa yung kumot namin.

Ako rin ang taga akyat ng ARINOLA ng mama ko.    Ako rin ang taga tapon ng mga weewee the next morning.   That portion of course, I don’t miss.