July 2, 2020, Thursday
I haven’t felt this way in a very long time. Opposite of what I had been feeling in the past several months, I feel ecstatic. To say that I am excited is an understatement. From my bumbunan down to my talampakan, my adrenaline is so perked up. I feel so relieved.
Why am I so happy today? Did I win in the Lotto lottery? No, how I wish, pero hinde. Yung bang may mga utang sa akin na mga tiga Binangonan ay biglang nagbayad? Ay naku hindi pa rin. Nagka pera ako bigla? No either.
I’ve been having sleepless nights worrying about the corochin virus, the business challenges we are facing in Manila, sometimes I feel like crying and fainting.
I feel the tiny bits of my body shaking and my gut is signaling me something.
I made a major decision hesitantly two days ago and I wasn’t convinced that it was the right thing to do. It was giving me sleepless nights and a serious doubt. My husband told me that I analyze things too much. He wanted me to just go right in and bahala na. But my gut was telling me the opposite. It was giving me signals that made me uncomfortable and stressed out. Last night and this morning I prayed that God just takes care of everything. If I made the wrong move, to help me correct it.
And He did help me decide decisively and fast this morning. He gave me an opening. I backed out of a deal with no hesitations, no negative emotion, no gut-wrenching moments, no regrets. I now feel relieved and ecstatic. Thank you Lord.
