In total disbelief

From March 20 up to about three weeks ago, I was in shock and depressed that’s why I couldn’t blog. I had no energy and not in the right frame of mind to do anything. I felt like my world has collapsed before me. After 4 and a half months, I now have a better understanding of our problem although I am still in disbelief that this could happen to our family or to anyone else. My anger has subsided and I have accepted that anyone could be vulnerable and gullible although I wished this never happened.

In life we can’t really be in control. When we think we are okay, something happens that make us NOT OKAY. Life is like a daily puzzle that challenges our capacity for understanding, absorption, creativity, resourcefulness, tenacity. The algebra and calculus are in our school curriculum for a purpose. They are supposed to prepare our brain cells to absorb tremendous pressure from problem solving, from trying to solve the scientific formulas. Those forced us to think. The disappointments we experienced in our lives every time shaped us to handle adult problems. Every heartache, body ache, failures, losses, pitfalls, misjudgments, bad judgments , lahat na pinaghaluhalo, make us ready for anything that life would throw at us in the future. Supposed to be. But no. Nothing can prepare a person for bigger problems. We crack.

The kind of problem that came our way measured our family’s determination, understanding and dedication to each other. We all go through tough times, but this one is like category 10 hurricane.

Our family has been busy trying to solve it little by little the best way we can using both heart and mind. There is a solution and that’s what we’ve been working on. We have to fix it otherwise it will remain a problem. With God’s help and guidance, we are making some progress. Basta kapit lang.