When I was a teen, whenever I hear people say derogatory remarks, or calling other people names, I vow to myself that I will never be like them. Hindi ako magmumura. In my young mind, I didn’t find it nice so I told myself not to do that, not to copy them.
And I was successful. I never did. Until now. Strange enough, I realized the other day that I have become like that. Nagmumura na ako. Kung kailan pa ako tumanda.
Constantly hearing people around me say derogatory remarks subconsciously affected me in a way that is against my being. This is a result of years of hearing bad words. My subliminal has been indirectly bombarded with bad words. I don’t want to get used to using mura to describe other people or what I am feeling. But unfortunately , I am beginning to be like that.
Sino ba yung tarantadong yun? Tarantado talaga yan!
Nakakahawa pala ang pagmumura. It went inside my subconscious and now it’s coming out of my consciousness. I must get rid of this bad trait from my system. It might take a while but I have to because this is not me.
I come from a a family/province/generation that “pu—ina” was part of a sentence – and did not offend anyone. I never picked it up and to this day can say I cannot recall na nag-mura ako (maybe Mr OMB can challenge this if he ever heard me). So my message is – no time is needed to erase cursing in your vocabulary. It’s either you want it included or not.