Yesterday, I was still feeling tired from my hectic schedule, and then I realized oh it’s my birthday tomorrow. There shouldn’t be any time to be tired or sad. I should jump and be merry. I went on with the day’s task, I renewed my drivers license which expired in May 2023.
For a few seconds, it crossed my mind to buy a nice gift but I controlled myself. Instead, I went to the department store of Robinsons Galleria and got myself an electric kettle for P690.
I visited the adoration chapel before going home. I quietly sat there for many minutes. At first I didn’t know who to pray for first. kasi daming may sakit ngayon. But then I started my prayers with a massive thank you. Thanking and thanking God for the many blessings bestowed upon me. Firstly, eto ako buhay pa. Still fine. Treading along, enjoying my stay on earth, sometimes sad, but otherwise, I am one of those able to do what I want to do.
I couldn’t help but feel sad too. Some loved ones have passed, and the thought that life is so full of uncertainties, makes me wonder, up to when will I be here? Theo is 2 years old and 10 months, and another little boy is coming in September. Will I still be healthy and around until they are old enough to remember me? If i die anytime soon, Theo will never remember the times he has spent with Wowa.
Life is fleeting. A high school batchmate of mine died two weeks ago. Many more are sick.
On the flight from Manila to Bacolod, I was seated on the first seat and I couldn’t help but notice the many seniors boarding with walkers, canes, with someone assisting them. So now is the time to be active while I still can. I can still walk, talk, see, so let’s go.
As my birthday approaches, my daughter keeps asking what I want to do on my birthday. Where do I want to go, or eat. It’s hard to think of a restaurant when my stomach is always bloated.
For today, this is what I want to do, Go to church, not to attend mass but just to sit there quietly, and express my appreciation for yesterday, today, and tomorrow. Visit an art gallery or an art museum, simple lunch of rice and dilis with Oyen and Theo, go home in time for Theo’s afternoon nap. Then a more formal dinner with Mon, Derrick, Oyen, and Theo.
Another year has passed. God knows my prayers and wishes. For today, here shouldn’t be any worrying about something and everything. I am only allowed to feel grateful.
(PAL flight from Bacolod to Manila, May 24, 2025)
