I think when I go home to Manila next week I should see a shrink. Para akong napa-praning. I haven’t been sleeping well eversince I saw that big spider in the sala, that was on wednesday, June 8. Everyday meron maliit na spider ako nakikita. This afternoon there was a huge huge huge one in the garage.
I am so afraid to open cabinets, drawers, doors, baka may gagambang lumabas. I am even afraid to shower because the wall is made of dark granite. I wouldn’t be able to see if there are spiders there. I am afraid to sleep, baka meron sa kumot ko. Baka when I am asleep, biglang gumapang sa akin. I am scared to open my bag, baka merong nakapasok sa loob. I dread the thought that while I am driving, meron palang spider sa loob ng sasakyan.
Oh my, how can I get rid of these fear. Before, I only had phobia, ngayon, paranoia na. Pag tanda ko, sa probinsya ang itatawag sa akin hindi Annie, kundi Aling Aning. I hope hindi Ka Praning.
