We always hear the cliche “Everybody deserves a second chance“. Another variation is “We all get a second chance“.
I am thinking, W H A T IF ?
What if I have already lived before, and I actually made so many mistakes and God sent me back to earth to redeem myself. To correct the mistakes I have done in my past life?
What if my present life was granted to me for the sole purpose of reliving my past life but this time, better.
What if I’m back on earth to correct my mistakes in the past?
If I am now living my second life, then I have bungled my second chance because I have made mistakes again, a lot of it. Then I am screwed.
Sometimes, I feel so sad, so bad and so guilty that I did not become a perfect person. An extremely good person. What if this is my first life? Since I have made mistakes, would that mean that I will eventually be given a second chance to correct the many mistakes I have done this life? To do better. To be better?
But how could I correct my mistakes done now if when I come back, I did not know who I was before and therefore I did not know that those were mistakes I should avoid and not do anymore? How would I know that? If I had known beforehand that this is my second life, then definitely I would not have fallen and I should have been a perfect human.
I could only correct the mistakes I have done in my past life or this life if I knew the very reason why I am back on earth. If I had no idea that that was so, then it would be an entirely new journey for me, and chances are, I would make mistakes again. I might even do worst than before simply because I didn’t know any better. The circumstances that I would encounter in my second chance life could be more challenging or overwhelming that I would be defeated.
Sometimes I think that life is so simple. That we humans just make things difficult. But sometimes I think life is already too complicated in itself. That it’s like a difficult puzzle and maze. Sometimes I feel I don’t even know life in itself, what life is all about.
Despite that, I still thank God for letting me live this life.
